Trying this out

Hello all! I've decided to join the world of blogging in an effort to keep you all updated on our family's happenings. The posts might be few and far between as I have limited access to the computer, but bear with me and I'll do the best I can!

Now to the important stuff...LAYNIE! She is growing so big! Almost 11 pounds now, can you believe it?? She amazes me everyday - I just can't get enough. The other night I had a dream that I had been babysitting her this whole time and I had to give her back. Needless to say I woke up in tears. Thankfully it was just a dream! It's still hard to believe that I'm a MOTHER! It's what I've wanted all of my life, but no one could have prepared me for how wonderful it is. Every morning I get her out of her bed it feels like Christmas. I can't wait for her to smile at me everyday and to see what she'll discover next. Her favorite thing lately is her hands! She will lay in her baby gym for up to an hour just grabbing at things, stopping only to hold her hands in front of her face with a "how cool is this" expression on her little face. I feel like I finally have a hint of the love God feels for us as his children. It absolutely amazes me that He can love me infinitely more than even this entire family loves her.

In other news, I had to go back to work on July 27th. It was rough going back to night shift! Thankfully it works for us right now, though as Stuart is home at night with her and I can kiss him on his way out in the morning when I get home. Nanny is going to help us when I need to sleep during the day. She is such a blessing to our family and I love her so much! Laynie has no idea how lucky she is to have such an incredible family. Getting back into the routine of work, and actually remembering how to do my job was a little more difficult than I expected. Things sure change fast in the medical world. I missed three months and it felt more like a year! Before I loved my job, it's exactly what I wanted to be doing. Nursing was my calling and I was working my dream job in the NICU. Now things have changed. My calling is to be a mother, and I feel that I don't want to be at work when I'm there! However, God gave me a strong healthy baby and the support of a strong family so that I can help sick babies. It's just a matter of reminding myself every night at around 2am when I feel like I just can't go on! I'm also grateful for the fact that I do have a job and can contribute to Stuart and Laynie in that way, especially in this economy. There is definitely a reason that our life is the way it is right now, and I'm just wanting to enjoy it while I can!

Stuart has absolutely amazed me as a daddy. He is crazy about that little girl and takes such wonderful care of us both. He's still slaving away at Peaches N' Clean, waiting on the Fire Department. Montgomery is in the process of budgeting for the new fiscal year, so hopefully we'll know something soon. He has been so patient and I know that God is going to reward him for his faith...whether it be now or later on, in the way he wants or in something better.

That's all for now...I have to go feed my little angel. Love you all so much!